haven't used dA in so long, but was bored so thought i'd drop back in just to see if there was any changes, which i doubted very much anyway.
razorblade kisses seems to be favourited by more people than i thought it would be, it's not even that good haha.
reading previous journal entries i thought "oh dear, what a twat i was" so i deleted a few of them cos they embarassed me.. i was young, naive + foolish shall we say haha i though i was so cool busting gigs and drinking cider down the local park. getting through 20 mayfair a month thinking i was addicted to nicotine and being a typical 'emo' teenager. haha i make myself laugh. i was incredidbly moody and sarcastic and seeked attention from people so much i nearly lost my friends, family + life.
i believe ive changed alot in the last 4 years. well obviously, most people do change. but, it dawned on me not so long ago that time flies so fucking fast.
in september i'll be in year 11, when it seems like my first day in year 7 was only a few months ago. i remember meeting and becoming very good friends with a particular person in year 11 when i was in year 7 and i thought he was amazing. i thought he was so much older and mature but now im nearing year 11, i don't feel much different.. well i dont feel mature or older or anything i thought that you would feel nearing your last year of compulsary school.
it's scary to think that in another 16 years i'll be 32.. probably with a job, a house + a family of my own.. 16 years has flown so fast and as they say time gets quicker as you grow older.
i dont want to get old, i'm scared :/ x